Yesterday I woke up numb. I never felt anything like this before after Paulo and I broke up. i thought were a perfect match. we had fights before but we never encountered something like this before. he change a lot and became restless. i found out that he’s on oxycodone addiction. i never thought he will do something so stupid. he ruined our relationship and most of all he’s life. i just cant accept it in a snap. i have to know why he became like that. so confused and eager to know i talked to he’s friends. they told me that once you get into that you can never let go. Jonas gave me a valium he wants me to try it. without even knowing what will happen to me, i tried it. i felt like a bubble floating in the air going nowhere. all my problems faded in an instant. so now im into valium addiction. when im high i just laugh and feels so hot. my friends used me after our session just to release the libido in me. i was not contented i tried opium for something new. just give me a brake. im not  addict and you don’t know me. Paulo hugged me and cried. i am so foolish to try such drugs. it changed my life out of curiosity. so helpless i can’t even recall our happy memories together. I hugged him back held his hand and said we can do this together. as I opened my eyes we’re together on a rehab to have an opiate detox.

180 days has passed the gate opened and a striking light welcomed us to a new life. we all have past and for sure there we’ll always be a future. we both know that we committed mistakes and learned from it. we just have to cross the next bridge when we get there.